Sunday, August 21, 2005

she i her me


Flew in and out of shelters like a pigeon through abandoned buildings
She never admitted that she did though
She somehow managed to look normal, smell less than others there
She stole without prejudice or guilt from everybody she could and like a raccoon she did all this at night
Climbing over the tides of stench & filth
Reaching her arm down deep
Into the calloused bodies
Pulling her arm out with at least one valuable
She knows where to sell everything from hair to teeth
One night, I was spared of the usual drowning in the washbasin dream
Only to dream of
her catching me asleep with my mouth open
She reached elbow and all
Down my throat
& let her nimble fingers search for buried treasure
She found my mother’s locket that I swallowed at the age of 3
There were pictures of her parents in there
Ma was so angry that I lost it
I never told her how

Saturday, August 20, 2005

Las Meninas and The Lame Devil


She talks on this corner

clipped gait
sentences snagging clothes as she jumps

Freeze!
They'll check papers, she warns

How to get across...
makes her mad
this bend like the one in the ward
projects sharply
provides no monitored escape

Hear the whistle
costly on the end closest
Just a sight from furthest away

Dry everywhere
watering was at the beginning of the week

Nothing left but to use molars
The fronts are gone
As are the ones who were scared
two nights in

She's light
after the metal sea
there's a shallow side for her waiting
She's a fitter
snips shear space out
Hold it right there!
She's in check

So illuminated by their lights that
She's clear
Off to fastening
the outside in
abandoning palabras

Friday, August 19, 2005

Uneasy Rider


Tom Andersen is a wonderous and insightful professor of film history and filmmaking. His latest movie opened a year ago, (although I hadn’t seen it until last week) entitled, Los Angeles Plays Itself, (which sounds all too close to Los Angeles Gets Played) is an indulgent documentary on the varied ways that Los Angeles is depicted spatially and culturally in films. Interestingly the film was being screened at the Villa Aurora, a Spanish style house built by a German Jewish architect in the Pacific Palisades area of LA. The people who gathered to watch it were a mix of elderly women who heckled people as they took their seats, middle-aged art film hangers-on, young urban professional artists mostly from Germany and Austria and a handful of self-appointed agents of the city, where I fit into that mischung is embarrassing and unnecessary to admit.
The clips of films about LA are well chosen and cut/narrated in a manner that betrays how passionate Andersen is about the city. Although I live there now, I’m not from LA. It’s very much a distanced (there) place, for me presently and I should note I get lost here daily. Encke King says in his narration for the film, that LA is the most used city in film, (this can't be true presently). Andersen goes back to the early days of the medium and proves that the renaming of the city in (a particular early film that I don't recall the name of) has been a deliberate effort made to fictionalize the city in films. The streets, buildings, suburbs fall out of order once on celluloid and are reassembled to make the war hospital scene more civilized and orderly once set in the historic Bradbury building, car chases more destructive or the romantic drive more picturesque. The trouble is that we’ve got a lot more of everything here in LA. More roads of all different types, more natural variations in terrain, more cars…there’s a lot to work with. Let’s face it, this town and it’s suburbs are a film scouts’ dream. It’s clear however that Andersen feels that films have generally betrayed LA in their portrayal of it.
Note to Linklater: Feel free to send Hawke and Delpy here to shoot the sequel to Before Sunrise and Before Sunset, call it 'After noon' perhaps. It will have to be set in some sort of motor vehicle as they certainly can’t walk to anything in a timely fashion. Then again perhaps this city is perfect for a Linklater film as his characters never seem to be in a rush to get anywhere and in one particular film never make it out of a single room.
Here’s my point, films in their very nature, unless they are a documentary, do not claim to accurately depict space or time, (except for in the case of Time Code). Does it matter whether Girl 6 lived in Bed Stuy or Harlem? We don’t read a book like Miller’s Sexus and get irritated because he didn’t specify which building ‘The Cosmodemonic Telegraph Company’ does business out of. It’s a work of fiction composed by an artist who uses words rather than pictures as a cinematographer does. Why should a film run on any logic other than it’s own? Had The Terminator’s fight and chase scenes traversed an actual single location would it have been an art-house classic? Hell, no.
As I stated earlier, I’m not from LA. I had a different idea of what it was/is from watching films so studiously. No, I didn’t understand that it would appear as it does in film in reality, (I did hope that they had better public transit than the non-existent system in movies). Most of the films that receive mass distribution that take place in LA, (and elsewhere for that matter) are not made for the people who make films themselves or are car-less and working three jobs to stay afloat. They’re made for one of the women at the screening who ‘doesn’t want people to see LA that way, that’s not what my life is like. I have to drive everywhere, I have appointments and professional obligations’. Films aren’t about her either are they? Then again, I don’t watch all the Loews mull. Is Andersen guiding those so inclined to make the contemporary equivalent to Woodberry's Bless Their Little Hearts...? quite possibly
Perhaps LA needs more directors like the Hughes brothers. As Besson and LeMonnier went underground and hitched across the countryside of France we need more films about LA traveling off of the highways aboard a Lexus and onto them as migrant workers riding in the back of pickups like shrubs from the Home Depot. A film maker to feature LA's dark, stinking alleys, turnstiles without fareboxes, miles of fenced borders and leagues of routes and highways.

Tuesday, August 16, 2005

The Elusive Horny Housewife and some comments on blogspot blogs


I was surfing around blogspot looking for an interesting read, I actually really wanted to find something to post a comment about. I thought it kind of those three people who visited my site today to post comments.
Ya'll come back ya hear!
During my quest to comment I found this site,
http://military.1forless.info/horny-military-wife/index.html
Deadly lure? Perhaps.
Who are all these people starting lame blogs?
Aren't they wasting their precious time? But more importantly, isn't HerbaLife passe? I don't know when it was all the rage anyway. And whoever is responsible for starting a blog to sell Avon products should feel ashamed of themselves.
Babies, yes, they are cute if they weren't who would bother buying them all of those diaper genies and Whoozit whatzit crap.

There were a few sites that caught my eye
http://fluorescences1.blogspot.com/
But, hey Chris, if you bother to check this out maybe you could post an entry about why you don't have anywhere for me to send you comments!
and one on Friendster:
http://stupidfamouspeople.blogs.friendster.com/
"Hateration" Kia made me laugh. Yes, I agree they are all stupid famous people. Oh, but Ms. Kia, why oh why are you interested in that Jake Gyllenhaal, (is that how his name is spelled?). How is it that he gets spared your wrath?
Still looking for some stimulating bloggin' action
Your gal, Ms. VS.

Last summer around this time I was trapped behind glass
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TAM



New cover
an old story.

The Attendant or Pas Seul



A r ed ca r par ks in front of the window facing the street each night
Again and again it pulls in
And out
Backs up through empty spaces behind it
Makes to pull out
Backs right up anon

The woman driving it sits inside moving
Repeating motions

Sometimes she needs to open the door
The light inside turns on
She’s not in there alone ever
That lot has cars in it all the time
No attendent in the marked booth

This is Motorized pacing
Her signals on
Implies that she’s waiting for something

Is this what bumpers are for?

She doesn’t park well
Has to get out many times to check if all her wheels are in between the wider lines
Her car wide and sedan tarry
straddles the lines

Who knows where she wants to be…

The guy in the black shiny car without his lights on, without plates
He wasn’t walking in her direction out of his car
But does linger by her back window for a real ly long time
Until the delegate she’s yelled to makes his way over
Just in time
The white lightless man is done

Between the two removed bars of the gate
On the vespers
There are men hidden in them thar cars
Trenchant patterns
The lot somewhere between
the high, or open
the sea, spring and mainland
exists through layers of air having different densities
the vapors refract off of her
inverting senses
de Facto

True North


MAK Center/LA



Why show only the still images from a video work?

In isolating the forms, immobilizing them Julien enables the viewer to concentrate on the exoticized environment, a space akin to Flaherty's exploration of the north, (Presently the temperature on Iqaluit, Nunavut is 9 degrees C. While it's currently 55 degrees F in Reykjavik, Iceland. 55-32=23 times 5/9=approximately 13 degrees celsius.) Although the photos themselves depict a cold place they aren't grainy, scary...at all like Nanook. Obviously a stylistic replica isn't what Julien was going for. The photos are too clean at times recalling expensive photospreads in fashion magazines in exotic locales. The asian assistant, let's call him Nanook's distant cuz looks cold down to his skivvies despite his hooded haute couture fur coat. But the assistant (unlike in the DVD Installation with three screens), looks like a model, statuesque and oddly warm.
This confidence/comfort in the facial expression/posture is both inviting and disconcerting.
Will continue organizing my thoughts on this later...

Monday, August 15, 2005

Le Noir Etalon



Outside a woman is calling out for someone named Elly
Where are you Elly.
Okay, she says
Elly must be there afterall
Sound could carry well in these hard spaces
I drove past Skid Row today or what the person in the car beside me referred to as such. She said that it wasn't exactly Skid Row. I didn't ask her what exactly that was, or this. She said that she doesn't drive on that street...doesn't think I should. They want what they don't have. What we have, that's why.
I saw a dead dog on the side of the entrance ramp heading onto the highway. I couldn't make it out at first. It looked like a sack that someone had tossed out of their car on their way...
I checked to see if it was still breathing. I never thought of myself as the type to try to save a wounded animal. Where was it going when it got hit? What happened? Why wasn't anyone there to help? Maybe there was a chance. Who knows when the accident happened.
Accident. I've been thinking a lot about that word since someone rear-ended me a couple of months ago. Accidents can't be helped?. What isn't an accident? What was planned.
More words.
In the future we'll be able to download thoughts straight from our heads to our blogs for public consumption.
The most valuable space will be intellectual and once you get the software sent to you in the mail you can go public and your stock will appear on the Nasdac. So you can send thoughts in all media and formats and others will receive ticker prices for those thoughts. All forms will be on AutoFill but bills will still only be virtually paid.

From on High

He waived his cane in my direction
He has needs

You are my sunshine
My light
…he said
I love you

But I love you…
he grabbed my arm
he touched my hair
he said,
I have money

How about a dollar
She said, that wasn’t enough
A dollar…he repeated
She said no, and turned away
Maybe later…
She said no
Fifty cents?
No.

I’m a good person
Do you have some change?
Any change
Coins…
I just want to get a bowl of rice
I’ll take anything

Sunday, August 14, 2005

Lying in bed...it's a relatively quiet night here in Downtown, LA. I'm mind numbingly tired but want to accomplish so much. I finally understand what Gary said about wishing that he would never have to sleep because it's a waste of time. As soothing as sleep can be, as much of a ticket to pause life as it is I just don't want to do it anymore. I may be replaying my conversation with Gary from who knows how long ago but...
Wouldn't it be lovely if you could work through sleep? Imagine how much work one could accomplish with the added time. I think that in response I said, but it's the lack of sleep that is actually impeding the consistent production. We were both right.
Words.
These are my last six days of my Getty Grant to work with the MAK Center for Art and Architecture. As it's drawing to a close I'm starting to feel sad that it's over.
Perhaps for the lack of a regular paycheck or is it that I really enjoyed this more than I'm willing to admit?
Well, whatever the reason now isn't the time to sort that out. I've got to wake up early tomorrow.
The Dr. Bronner's bottle says that all one needs is enough sleep and Dr. Bronner's well, at least I have one out of two. I'll keep working on the former.

I suppose that the Bus service is minimal on a Sunday night in LA. How many of the sweatshops are in operation on this day of Sun. Where are all of the buses kept when they are not sitting idling in front of my building. It's not completely quiet here. There are buses on other streets. What is the system?
I should call dad and ask him whether buses run on an automatic transmission or manual.
Buses sound like the inside of horns mashing against each other.
Disparate thoughts.
When will I make it to Denali to see the wild goats?
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So what do I want to do here?
Like a politician I've got plans, big ones.
I want to record my starts and stops. I'd like to think of this as a step towards cultivating my snobbery and making it more palatable for myself and others. Teehee.
Okay, how about this...
These postings will provide me with a space wherein I may organize and analyze, write about art, film and all artistic disciplines that I come in contact with or desire to. I'll mince words and broadcast them for harvest in 45 days.
So much for first words. First anything leaves a lot of room for disappointment and improvement.
Noodles-that was my first word
Tune in tomorrow for my second.
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